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Originally Posted by Michelle25
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I am so sorry for you. I have also felt totally worthless, without reason to go on. I have no family of my own and it's too late to start now. I have pain and physical problems and have had my fill of doctors who are of no help. I'm disgusted with a friend I've trusted for years. I am lucky to have a job but I hate some of the people I work with. I don't feel loved and I need to be loved so bad. But today I will go on, because as crazy as it sounds, I have a little hope. I have some hope that maybe things will change for me in a few months or in a few years if I just hang on. Maybe, you never know. I also found a T that I like and I'm hoping he can help me. He has already helped me with one problem (it took about 1 yr of therapy for that). It is so good to share my troubles with my T because he wants to help me, he is there for me. There are no quick fixes. Everything takes time. Please try to hold on because YOUR life could turn out to be wonderful. Maybe you could try therapy? There may be some groups you could meet with that address some of your problems. You say you feel like a burden to others, but that means someone is out there caring for you, no? You are leaning on someone and they think you are worth something. This is a bad time for you but you can get through it...just hold on...  |
I can totally relate.
Right now and lately (again), the "little" thing I am here for is Kitteh - and the responsibility and promise I made to him when I rescued/adopted him. If I didn't have him, at this point, it would be a whole different story.
I, too, am living on that similar teeny weeny itzy bitzy bead of hope that lives inside of me - been there ever since I can remember. I have no idea why it keeps hanging on / it's like a stick-on or extra little piece of (internal) something .... or something ...
... there are have been a million and one reasons/happenings in my lifetime why I should not be here. And I am pitiful in that I keep thinking "maybe tomorrow will be better". (my father used to make fun of me and say I am a hopeless romantic).
I am in my 40s now...I still had hope until recently. Especially today.
It generally doesn't get better; although, I am just better able to tolerate what goes on.
Today is not one of those days, though
I just want you to know that I understand what you are saying. I don't get it, but I understand.
And you are NOT alone.
