Hi there;
oh man, she sounds like she is perfectly recreating the abuse you've already had! One reason why you might not be able to assert yourself in the first place is because at some point you were hurt deeply when you tried to tell someone how you felt. This person is essentially ignoring you, and on top of that, I bet it feels familiar as well to have to stay in a situation because you fear the consequences.
That really sucks, not a good situation at all! If you don't experience good things happening when you assert yourself in therapy, you won't be able to properly heal. Your trust in people is likely already shattered, and this therapist-I feel, is actually doing more damage then good and could potentially traumatize you further.
My T tried a "name that emotion" exercise with me, and I got to a point where I didn't want to do it anymore. When I voiced this, she STOPPED.
Therapy is very difficult even when you are going at your own pace; pushing yourself to far has consequences-the more traumatized you become, the less you will be able to function.
I am sorry this situation is so dictated by finances, otherwise I'm sure you'd be outta there in a heartbeat.
I'll pm you a link that might help.
This really sucks, I hate hearing about therapists who don't understand how difficult therapy is-I have to wonder if this person has ever been through therapy herself o0;
take care,
-obj
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