Had a session today, and T asked what I actually did for si.... that is the most uncomfortable question!!! And he's trying to open up the box of all the feelings/emotions that I hide from the rest of the world. And then I have a date coming up (tomorrow) and he is asking me to dress in something that I have never been for Halloween, and I just don't have time to deal with this...... Is this weekend almost over yet....

Had to vent, I so want pain right now... but no I have to study and try and understand stupid curved arrow notation in Chemistry...

And opening myself up to emotion just scares me.

and I don't really want to have a date with a guy that I have just text'd and only had one conversation with... and I'm just scared!!!!!!!! What if we have nothing in common or talk about... how old is he?.... Why has he never called??? Texting is really lame way of asking a girl out. Why did I say yes to this??? And this last part is the thing that just puts me on edge.... What if it's really awkward???

And then that adds to the urges, and I just don't have time for that, I have a test to study for, and a tutoring session to get ready for... AHHHHHHH...

Okay, I think I got everything out now. I just hope I can calm myself now.