I think feeling Hate is just part of Bipolar and just part of life at times. I often get the hate rage anger thing going on.. I do not like myself when it happens I tend to keep to myself when it happens and focus on the feeling of air entering my lungs. ( much more effective way to calm down, seriously)

My husband said he wants the "old me" back .. Wow that stung a bit. He now knows that I'm still here . I do feel that somehow I got "broken" ?? But lots of things get broken and repaired and come back in better shape.

Do you go from hypo to mania in a blink of the eye? If you dont flip right into mania why not just enjoy the hypo?

I honestly think alot of people (myself included) can become to obsessive with our moods. Yes we do need to do a "self check" at times.

I'm still learning my way and how I can have a great life despite having Bipolar and chronic pain. Some days I do better than other days.

Hope that helps