I used to play similar games (back before I got old and tired, lol, can't be bothered these days!) and for every T you play games with, 99% of them will drop you like a hot rock. The exasperation in the sessions? Yeah, that's from the game playing. You got lucky with your T there - she is one of the 1%ers. They are the gems. You should hold onto your gem. If your SSDI or whatever its called over there comes through and you can keep going to therapy, remember your gem!