Hi. I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety about a year or so ago. I was also diagnosed with epilepsy when I was 14 years old, and a learning disability when I was 16 years old. Recently, I found that I am struggling more and more.
Today I lost my job. I have been struggling to keep a job due to the economy and my different mental health issues. I used up all of my unemployment because I was laid off of my last job, and I feel like all of my resources are gone. I am only 20 years old, and I feel like there are very few options for people like me. I am trying to attend college so that I can find work, but I no longer qualify for financial aid. I cannot afford school on my own, especially now that I don't have a job. Now I can't afford my bills either...no job, no unemployment. I'm not disabled enough to qualify for things like SSI, as they denied me before...but I'm too disabled to be able to donate things like eggs or plasma for money. I'm too old to qualify for children's support, but not old enough to take on 21+ responsibility. I'm at a loss, and I feel like I am slipping further into depression. I have withdrawn from my friends and family...spend most days in my room, not wanting to interact with anyone...the idea of having to face another day scares me...the idea of having to leave the house kick starts my anxiety every time. I feel like I will have a panic attack every time I have the thought of having to be somewhere outside of my home...as life has become a struggle. I have family who is struggling with diabetes and cancer....and right now, I feel like I can't face the world. I spend no money, yet I still find myself in debt. I worry that I will end up on the streets because society turns its back on people like me. I am not a case of expecting the government to help me with everything. I worked hard for everything I wanted, and it was a let down every time. It was a sad case of me getting knocked down time and time again.I worked hard, found a job, business closed. This happened multiple times. But my unemployment is gone. And as much as I continue to try and get back up, there are only so many attempts a person can make before it starts to make you feel like you wont smile again. I'm scared of what will become of me. And I am afraid I wont be able to pull myself back out of this dark place I am in. Lately, I am now struggling to keep up in school. I can't seem to focus, and have trouble understanding. It makes me feel worse than I already do....and fearful...I worry that I will wind up failing no matter how much I study and stress. It feels like a cycle I can't break free of, and more than anything I wan't out of it. I just don't know how to do so...