Oh my goodness, thanks so much for all the validation and support. I am overwhelmed at all the kindness. It means so much to me. I feel a bit stronger, like I may have a voice to find.

In fairness to my T, when I told her I wasn't comfortable, she did try to at least change some of the parameters, but I wish she had just let the activity drop. I didn't demand she stop--that is so hard to do when something is sprung on me--but I stated I wasn't comfortable. She knew what she was doing because she said her job was to push me outside of my comfort zone.

I'm scared because she can turn this all around and blame me. I know I have to write her though. I'm still not sure how far I will go because I don't want to damage the relationship beyond repair. But all your words are helpful to me and make me feel like my feelings count for something.