You aren't broken beyond repair, no one is... especially someone as sensitive and intelligent as you are.. Change is hard and scary though.....
I understand I haven't experienced all that you have and I certainly can't tell you to love yourself for who you are (that has to come from within and it can take a very long time for anyone).... heck to be honest I don't even love myself (((((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))

with respect,
Fuzzy