I know its dumb but it feels like forever since i got home from my trip to go visit my t (its been 8 days!) i havent gotten to talk to her since we said goodbye at the airport. Since then we have been having to hold everything in. W havent had our regular 2x/wk sessions because she had a few family things she had to take care of this week and some extra things going on. I dont know when that will be done. She texted me a couple times this week to let me know she is ok just busy. Not the same as getting to skype/ talk on the phone.
She doesnt even have a computer right now to get to video chat anyway.
I miss her so much. The inside kids dont understand that she is fine and that we were just there-- there are several of them that still have very little object permanence. If shes not in front of them, they dont get that she even exists.
Plus halloween is coming (bad trauma day for us) and we lost our job plus other stuff going on-- and i keep having panic attacks, etc etc
Just too much to hold in
We keep cutting and we are not eating much
We just need to talk to her
I wish i could run away and be back there in the same country as her
We didnt want to come home.

I wish so much this whole family emergency thing would just end already and she could come home, but she still has absolutely no idea when that will be.
I want her to come home