Now that you've had another lesson in what happens when you say something contradictory to your intention, are you going to change your behavior? Or try to?

I think there's a sense of exasperation because you have so much insight into your problems, but there doesn't seem to be any attempt to use it for your own benefit.

I have problems with trusting people too. But for me, the source of the problem isn't a history of csa. It's people "playing games" and being needlessly complicated with their emotions/behaviors. For easily exhausted people like myself, this is being abusive. I imagine if I knew you in real life and I had wrapped myself up in a tight knot with worry over you--only then to be cussed out--I'd be REAL exhausted.