hey angelbear,

I know you may be in a bad place right now and I have said the same thing myself many times. The feeling and the thought of being sad, afraid, alone for the rest of your life feels absolutely horrible. The truth is in my opinion, is there is absolutely no way you can know that for sure. We know what happened in the past that may have messed with our heads but no one knows what is going to happen in the future. We can't even control everything in the present moment. The one thing we can do is control or at least observe our minds and our thoughts, and what may be perpetuating our suffering. It is tough and takes a lot of effort but it can be done.

Try making notes for yourself. I usually put them on my wall in front of my desk to remind myself of key things when I'm feeling overwhelmed or miserable.

kindly,

Wannabe