Hahaha... don't be so embarrassed about doing that kinda thing in preschool

Apparently, when I was in preschool and kindergarten, I was something like that too. I went to a REALLY small school (it was a K-8 school, with less than 100 people total), and so our preschool and kindergarten teacher took both grades (around 13 kids in total) on potty breaks a few times a day, so that she wouldn't have to take individual kids. Because the teacher was a woman, all of kids- even all the little boys- went to the girls restroom. I apparently had some kinda schoolyard romance with a little boy named Benjamin. I don't remember much about it.... but apparently, every morning when we took our bathroom breaks, I would give him a kiss on the lips when the teacher wasn't looking

In addition, if a boy in my grade did something nice for me, or I did something nice for him (i.e.- sharing toy blocks or crayons) we would kiss. Sometimes, the boys would really just kiss me for no apparent reason (I don't know why; but I guess I never got mad at them. I never started any fights lol).
I didn't even know that I did that until my mom asked me if I remembered Ben YEARS later, when I was in 6th grade... and I was just like "Who???".... and that was a boy I kissed EVERY SINGLE DAY. It's not all that unusual to express affection like that when you're little.... I think...?
My mom said that I was one of those "really adorable little girls" up until I was, like, 7 or 8. (She always says, "OH, you were so cute! What happened?" LOL)
(But after that, I began chunking out a lot. After that, boys stopped being nice to me....... gee, imagine that- even 1st grade boys are really superficial )

As for now, well..... now I consider myself pansexual (that is, if I fall in love, I won't care if it's a boy/girl/transgender/hermaphrodite- as long as it's mutual, and as long as it's love ). I know that part of this may be due to my past (inappropriate) sexual experiences.
It took me a long time to accept the fact that I was interested in girls as well. (I couldn't even bring myself to change for gym class with them- I was so embarrassed, because I would just gawk at some of the girls in my grade .)
But even now, while I still find myself strongly attracted to guys (particularly older men), I find myself repulsed by them to a degree (again, probably due to my past)
I guess I haven't figured myself out yet