Canders ... I truly wish that i could do or say something that would take away your pain. However .. I am not sure that there is anything that anyone can even say. But just know that you ARE worth it. You are NOT a burden. And you are NOT a failure. I haven't been on pc for very long, but i can tell who the people are that are truly respected on here. You no joke were the first person that i thought that of. You are the first person to welcome someone new here, or to even just say hi to someone on chat. You are the first person to ask someone if they are okay, or if they need to talk about something. You are just so thoughtful and giving ... you just need to believe that about yourself. And I know that you are questioning your intentions about helping people, but imo, it takes a really strong person to offer advice and strength to someone that is in need, when they themselves are struggling.

And I don't know much about disabilities... but i do know that you're view on the word depends on how much love you have for yourself. How much you respect yourself. When you fail to love yourself you are denying your own sense of who you are, who you are behind all of this emotional and physical baggage. Right now, you need to take care of YOU.

"Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. It is how you arrange your mind. When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change." - Dy. Wayne Dyer.

I hope that you are feeling a little better today, and you are in my thoughts.

Jacqueline