Thanks... I keep trying to keep things in perspective and stop thinking short term like i usually do, i need to think more than what is what is right in front of me. She wont be gone forever (just feels like it)-- even if she is gone for another year or even five more, it wont be forever. Even if i cant talk to her for another week or two, that isnt forever. And it isnt impossible, its just Freaking HARD

I am trying really hard not to cut. Tonight i am discouraged about that. I started self injuring when i was eight years old... And i am forty now. Will i EVER be able to stop? Will i be 90 and still doing it? Will i be 90 and still have DID and still have upset, angry inner 2 year olds crying over not being able to see my T? Argh,,,