Hi Creative1onder, I also wanted to offer you some emotional support. Like IceCreamKid, I have a job that contributes to my depression. I was wondering if there was any way that you could go to a clinic that offers counseling sessions based on a sliding scale? You can also try seeing a masters student that is overseen by a licensed T (therapist) as well for a severely reduced price. That is what I do, and I pay $25/session, based on my income. I wish you the best of luck that you can get out of that horrible cycle.