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Originally Posted by adel34
and am trying to force myself to focus on that and not former t) to ask her if she thinks I'm "overfocused" on my feelings. I'm thinking she'd probably laugh! A good part of our work was spent trying to get me to get out of my head, stop analyzing things and distanceing, and start expressing my feelings!
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Focus and over-focus is about analyzing! It is great that you have an opinion about this treatment plan idea of the OT's, it sounds like that's what he was hoping for. That you "discuss" feelings and think about feelings is not the same as feeling the feelings and using them to help you. Feelings are just feelings, aren't good or bad and thinking about and "expressing" them is not good or bad but if you are letting them get in the way ("and the thought of doing this makes me think I'll end up under someone's car at any moment") instead of helping you move forward, maybe you need to "think about" them differently?
Your OT's thoughts and opinions are his. They may or may not be useful to you but it is up to you to look at them honestly and see what they might have to offer. That you have this big a reaction to them, makes me think they might be hitting close to home for you? If you were not focused on your emotions, you would not be this anxious or have this great an emotional reaction? You cannot change how you feel! Feelings come and go, like weather; they're information; if it gets cloudy, you break out the umbrella. If you are feeling anxious, you see what feels scary and what you can DO to make it less scary. Just saying, "oh, no, that's too scary, I don't want to think about or deal with that" doesn't help in any way? That's like not wanting to go to an appointment because it's cloudy and may rain later.