Good luck. Sounds like a lot going on.

Regarding your suicide comment, things WILL be ok. That's the fact in life. People who commit suicide gave up and don't give life/themselves/time the chance to make things ok. Problems come, and most problems go. Remember that term paper you freaked out about at 15? That pimple at 17? No? Both seemed liked HUGE problems then. Now, they don't... do they? Not everything is as big as it seems, and some people give up everything for it. Problems that do exist can often be fixed-- terminal illness an obvious exception. I know a kid who chose suicide at 13 over issues with classmates. A few short years down the road, his life would have been different, and his 13 year old problems wouldn't seem so bad. People commit suicide because they don't understand that most problems are not permanent, but suicide is tragically permanent. And, most have mental illness and biological problems occurring that lead up to the suicide.

Once you feel 1) you have control over your life, 2) most problems are temporary... things seem a little better in life. It's empowering.