Hi
We are hear for you. MJ is right. You are not worthless. You sometimes may feel like you are. Those are the tough days. Self talk is helpful. You sound like my cousin. She was recently diagnosed with bipolar. After many drugs she is now on lithium and it's been quite helpful. She is back to living a "normal" life. People here are very supportive. Anytime you need to vent or want advice or just someone to talk to. you can certainly get it here. Keep us updated. Remember we are here for you.

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