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Originally Posted by ObLaDa
First post -- anxious to get feedback. A little background: I've been seeing my t for a little over a year. She's helped me through a lot and is watching me get and stay sober.
Today she helped me process an event that happened nearly 10 years ago. But as the anniversary of said event is this weekend, I always find myself reliving the thoughts and emotions I felt back then. Usually these thoughts are manageable, but as I have less than 90 days sober, they're jeopardizing my ability to stay sober. So I wanted to talk everything over, and we did. She said it made her angry and upset about how the situation -- how I, as a human being -- was handled. And then she started to tear up and nearly cried.
I'm touched at her kindness and compassion. I'm grateful she's sticking up for me and my best interests, even though its after the fact and neither of us can change what happened. Except now I don't know how to handle the fact that she nearly cried. Don't get me wrong -- I think she is amazing and I am so grateful for how she's helped me.
Has anyone else experienced something similar? What did you do to handle it?
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Maybe she was modeling for you. This may or may not be the case. You could ask her at your next session and I'm sure she'd be glad to discuss it with you in an honest fashion.
Last week when I brought it to T's attention that I only have 2 appointment left, I think she may have had a strong reaction towards me. We have been trying to terminate for a while now. It's been discussed since the beginning of my therapy since I was traumatized by abrupt termination previously by an intern. I just don't think she was expecting me to be ready now. I'm sure she must have been a little shocked lol. She politely said that she was hungry and then excused herself. She came back after about 3-4 minutes with some crackers and water. For almost a year of weekly sessions, she has NEVER had to leave the room for any reason. This could be coincidence or maybe not?
