the mask is back on. everyone thinks I'm fine. and I don't know how to take it off.

I just don't know. how do I tell people that I'm meant to kill myself next week. that I've been cutting. that I'm living in my head with the voices again.

that I've been lying to everyone. that I'm barely sleeping cuz I can't take my meds.

everything seems so totally pointless. and everyone says I'm never actually going to recover. so what's the point?

everything's so pointless.

as scary as it is in my head with the voices it's safer than the real world. and Else and Jadey are there at night.