Mixed, I just got tired of engaging you.

I came here for support, not to be attacked. NO ONE is making the four of you click on or read my posts, so why are you expending your energy if I am making you SO EXHAUSTED? Just avoid my threads.

Beginning with empty's post, I should never have responded. My post was never about me doing anything mean to my T. It was about her calling the police instead of me when she was concerned.

Yes, I want to run every time I feel like we are getting too close. Yes I wanted to stop therapy again. That's not a crime and its not abuse. It's one of the issues I am working on in T.

If my T was feeling abused, she is perfectly capable of saying "Hey TC, you are mean to me and you cancel our sessions too much so I no longer wish to work with you."

But she hasn't said that to me, and she continues to encourage me to return.

We have already discussed what I'd like her to do if I say I'm not coming or I try to cancel my sessions; ignore me and remind me that she is expecting me to show up to my session. If my T and I can reach that agreement, what is the problem YOU are having with it?

So- PLEASE, Empty, Auto, Mixed, Adele- go find someone else to gang up on. I wouldn't want you to waste all of your energy on me.

But thank you for helping me understand that I am a horrible, mean spirited mentally ill imperfect person.

Thanks too for making me feel like I don't deserve to be helped. I don't know what I would do if people like you weren't here to tear down the little bit of self esteem my T has instilled in me.