I can relate. I want and desperately search for someone to take care of me. When T does anything that's caring then I tell myself that she does it just because it's her job which I pay her for and that she wouldn't do it otherwise. For the most part, T's really do care or otherwise they wouldn't be in that profession (or be in it very long). I think it's just us that have issues with accepting that caring that perhaps we've never had before. In my case, I was somewhat cared for but it was on a conditional basis. With T, it's unconditional