I just wanted to say to you that I completely agree that what you say and do to your T is not "abuse." I am not fond of people using anything that is less than ideal behavior as a definition of abuse. I work with abused women, and I have a history of childhood abuse, and what happens in cases of abuse does not really resemble at all what is going on in your therapy.

I don't think that people are ganging up on you, though. I think that they are trying to give you honest feedback about what they see, and there may be something in their perspectives that might be useful to you. I'd like to see you give up an automatic reaction that suggests that people are doing something bad to you and instead be able to understand where they are coming from. We can learn so much from others even if we ultimately reject what they are offering, as it may be that how people react to you here is somehow replicated in life off-line.

I also think you have a done a good job at figuring out that you don't need to respond to posts that miss the mark if you don't want to. That is an important insight for you.

One last thing-- no one said that you were a horrible person or that you didn't deserve to be helped. No one made you feel anything, your reaction belongs to you. I think the very fact that folks took the time to write what they thought, rather than ignoring you and rather than coming in with a 1 or 2 sentence zinger, suggests that they are not just trying to be mean to you. And there wasn't any name calling here, and I don't think you are being fair to them by saying these last few things. I'd like to see you get to the point where you could acknowledge negative-tinged feedback, and be reflective about it. You can tell people that they've missed the mark or the point (as you did in the beginning of this post) without putting words and intent onto them that are not there.

FWIW, I see you as working through some important stuff with your T now, and I'm really glad you posted. I think you are trying to figure out how you can move forward, you have so many strengths that you can rely on. I think people see that and want so much for you to get better and that's why they post to you, we collectively want you to reach the incredible potential that you seem to have. People care, even if they don't respond to your posts the way that you want. I think everyone is rooting for you. I know I am. Let us know what you need.