Hi ! I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. Things are so difficult right now in this country. It seems like everyone is struggling, and some are worse than others. You are having a REALLY rough time! I'm so sorry.

How about talking to your counselor at school. I'm sure they have one, as most schools do. They must have one -- or an advisor or something. I'm sure they'd be happy to talk with you. They would undoubtedly have a list of resources for you to try in your area -- places where you could get help. Talk to your advisor/counselor and see what they have to say. I'm sure it will help.

You really could use some therapy too, but I know you can't afford it right now. I wish I could give you some solid answers, but I can't. Like I said, I think your advisor at school would be the one to talk to. Best of luck and God bless. Hugs, Lee