Hi, Broken Angel.

You hit the problem right on the head when you said that you miss your childhood so much. That's the biggest problem for some of us with this illness.

You might try letting your adult in you accept the little child within and then try to
meet some of her needs that are unmet at this time in your life. For example,
I miss the childhood play time, and I try now to let the little child out of its prison and do some things that she enjoys--such as painting.

Give your little child within the love and attention she needs. That will go a long, long way toward helping ease the pain you're feeling. The child within is very sensitive and
needs to feel loved more than anything. Letting her have freedom will permit you to
accept many things that bipolar illness wants us to feel pain about. Give her that love,
please.

Good wishes,

Gen