I agree that some of my own "stuff" came through in my posts to you. I don't believe you are a bad person and I definitely don't believe that you don't deserve to be helped. And none of my responses were in any way implying that.

I imagine that you're struggling with some really intense feelings that must seem overwhelming.

I'm wondering if you could try a different approach when it comes to your feelings by taking some ownership, realize the affect it may have on others and trying to see how to perhaps do things differently...or communicate your feelings in a different way. It may be a worthwhile experiment.

Instead of making us out to be the "bad guys", which is the easy way out, be curious about what's happening and use it as a learning tool rich for exploration.

It requires being very honest with yourself BEFORE reacting....exploring the feelings that come up, the impulses that it creates and trying to understand what those feelings are telling you.

I'd imagine that would be something valuable that could come of this instead of chalking it up to what I see as some kind of narcissistic injury.

I am trying to explore my piece in this as well, to see what value is in it for me. Considering I am triggered by a lot of what you post, I'd imagine it's in my best interest not to read your posts. I've known that...so it's important for me to try to understand why I decided to read and respond.

It's all good stuff in the world of exploring human behaviors and trying to get a better understanding of ourselves. Even the most grueling of exchanges tends to yield very valuable results....although it can be unpleasant.