I took rx painkillers and drank to try to ease the pain and depression I'm in. Of course it makes me feel good for a little bit, but then it wears off. And then I have to start drinking and taking more just to get that affect. I was absolutely obsessed with getting drunk and taking vicodin. I still think about it a lot, but I haven't taken anything. I went to therapy for the depression, other than taking meds, it worked ok. When my insurance kicks in, I'm going back to talk about that and my addictions. AA is a good thing for me too, since everyone there knows how you feel. I'm having an anxiety attack right now, I think I need to relax and have a cup of coffee.