sunrise, you hit the nail on the head. I may paraphrase what you wrote in my letter to T, if you don't mind.
you're right asiablue, it is "little" me feeling this way, but I can't not go into that mode when thinking/writing about this. I was abused as an adult, too, so difficult to say what mode I'm really in. I want to make my points and not offend her, but not back down either. I may paraphrase what you wrote, too, in my letter to T if you don't mind.
can't explain--yeah, and it stinks. but she wasn't helping her case any by deliberately setting the conditions in the room to be what they were during my assault. I got the transference, but it's all T's fault.