((((TC)))) I am late to this thread...and I don't really have a lot of background on many struggles and what you are working on (I'm super behind), but I did want to comment that if the police barged into my home unannounced for whatever reason - without fair warning - it would have scared the heck out of me.

You mentioned in your OP that some things were said in your session ... perhaps that created concern on the part of your T and after trying to reach you via email (what seems to be your normal mo with your T) to no avail, she was probably afraid for your well-being and called for help for you.

Back to the original point, though, a phone call definitely would have been nice; however, if her concerns were in writing and something DID (God forbid) happen, she would have that for her files (so I think she was also protecting herself in those terms, while trying to protect you at the same time).

Had it been necessary for some kind of investigation and/or review after, she would have back-up that she tried her best. A phone record of a one or two minute call would not be of much help in that regard.

Back to you, though, I really hope you feel better, realize the consequences that when you speak there IS someone that is taking you very seriously (which has probably not always been the case) and that you continue to make gains.

I am writing the last remark simply out of experience: (about someone FINALLY taking you seriously) because no one in my family cared at all that I was deeply depressed and serious about my feelings and how deeply I was hurting...and I knew if something happened to me, they wouldn't care at all. In fact they would probably feel happy about it. That is how much they thought about me.

But with my T1 (when I expressed the same feelings to her...that is what brought me to her in the first place), she took it very seriously and I knew that she cared and also the consequences right off the bat from my feelings (if, then) - and that in itself helped me on a road to recovery

I wish the same for you. There are people that really DO care; depite whatever happened in the past to bring you to this point.