OMG i am sorry i didnt mean to worry anyone .you guys are so amazing and make me feel so good.i don't ever want to be mean to any of you at all. i am just sad that is all.i don't know what to do.i know i did quit T and i also sent her an e-mail saying that i just can't come back at all.i don't knoe if i should look for another T or not .i know that she herself is not the reason i don't talk it is all me.for one reason or other.it wouldn't matter who i see if i am not able to talk or am so darn resistant .i guess i just need to be ready.i trusted this T more the i have trusted any other .exsept my fauster mother at the time. i don't know if i can do that again or even if i should .with art or any kind of T.wow thanks for all this is means a lot to me and know that i worry about all of you just as much and wish so much love to all of you.i'm sorry