thats all "very real" stuff Dan...and you're 'really' connected to it as well...

it's quite a gift though no doubt distressing

...and I don't want to minimise the impact this has on you but I kinda wish I could identify my triggers and experience them in a real way.

I'm just totally scattered throughout the day and night and everything is a surprise to me I tend to hide...apart from the illness I did lots more damage to my brain that it probably didn't need over the years.

....hey and thanks for your other responses down the page there.