I Have had a string of days where I have been in a pretty good mood !
Yes I still have the hallucinations and the pain and unbelievable stress coming at me from all sides, but I have been really putting into place all the coping skills my T and I have worked on and Mindfullness. ( thank you Anika for showing me how it really helps)

I know I will still be up and down. But it's really nice and I'm going to just enjoy every moment I get

I'm just really happy can you tell