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I wasn't brave enough to post this in relationship forum, that’s why it is going here although I wish I could stop myself typing this. However every time I get a bit SU I text my ex something random or if it is really late like early hours of morning then I just send a blank text, he can just assume I lent on me phone in the night that did happen before by accident once and he is the first person in my contact list so nothing strange there. However I know this is wrong but it's what I do. I don't think he really realizes how I am feeling at those times although part of me has a sneaky suspicion he may realize a little or wonder if that's how I am feeling sometimes. He normally text back but I get the feeling he feels he has to and assume I am sad and desperate, which I sort of am but in a different sense to what he may be thinking. However I never consider how this may be messing with his head or hurting him in my doing that then being cold towards him although there is no way we would get back together or anything like that. Also he now has a new girlfriend so again this is being harder and stranger thing to do considering he told me about her.
Ha anyone else done something like this in the past or is this just something strange I do?
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