IMO, she's milking this for all its worth, & it doesnt 'sit right' bcoz you lose a little of your dignity every time she coerces you to beg... Its not right, that why it doesnt sit right, but you dont see it, coz you' re riddled with guilt. There's no healing in re-hashing a wrong,daily... Why? bcoz there is no movement forward, and moving forward is key. Who knows why, but your gf is emotionally blackmailing you. I dont blame you for wanting to run, I'd actually follow through...