I agree with the other posters. She's either forgiven you or she hasn't. I think you should tell her how you feel. It's not "sitting right" with you because it isn't right what she's doing. It's not healthy, and she is actually hurting you. Ask her how she would feel if you made HER beg for forgiveness, over and over again the way she has done. Maybe she doesn't realize what she's doing. But if she keeps on with this behavior, I would rethink whether I'd want to be in this relationship in the first place. You are not perfect, and you will mess up again. And she isn't pefect either. The point is if you learn from the experience. It seems like you have. She needs to learn how to accept an apology and move on. Sorry for the long response, but I wish you the best. Good luck!