Thank you everyone for the hugs-it really means a lot to me <3 I feel like this has been building up inside of me-and I was heading towards absolute destruction...I cried to T at one point "I'm dying...I can't do this anymore"...and I feel so much relief...that I'm going to get help and that my family knows...them not knowing was horrible. I feel like it has been released from my soul and not crushing me as bad by just giving voice to it...I had no idea it would end up having to go to the hospital...but it is what it is.
I hope I like the program...and I hope I can get on some meds besides the xanax (which I've slept more since I've been home than I had been in a week and half-thank God-and the docs)...I hope I like the other people in the group (I hope I don't know any of them-it's kinda a small town-almost everyone in the mental health field here knows my T)...but I'm going to go in there and give myself over to what it has to offer...this weekend I'm going to REST and EAT!!! Thanks again to everyone...I know I haven't been posting support and all-I've just been struggling obviously...I hope to be back soon!! xoxoxo