((((((((((((( BD )))))))))))))

Supposedly a person's beauty is in their heart and soul, rather than in how they look... ppl should accept you for who you are, not for you weight, and if they can't accept them then that's their own loss rather than yours...

40lb is an awful lot to lose, did you lose it healthily? You say you're bulimic, were you dx'ed by your dr? If so then maybe you could be referred to a nutritionist who could adivse you on how to lose weight slowly but so you'll keep it off. I know what you feel like when you say you don't deserve to eat but purging can cause so much damage to your body in a short time (from what I've read). Small (but healthy) regular meals are supposed to be the trick. Perhaps if you had small healthy snacks throughout the day (eg an apple, or a small salad) you wouldn't feel so guilty, after all, nobody can gain weight from eating an apple. Taking your vits is important too since purging can cause electrolyte imbalances which can lead to heart failure.