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I've never been diagnosed with any form of schizophrenia, though my doctor has mentioned that she's noticing small signs that she'd like to keep an eye on.
I always thought that hallucinating was the only thing I was experiencing, until I realized that what I've always assumed was that thought voice inside my head, was talking back to me. I never paid too much attention to it because it was simply a thing I was used to, but now I'm unsure. I've been trying to be more aware of it. It only happens when I'm in low moods, and battling clinical depression, this is quite often.
It usually comes in chants,
"Your friends don't like you, your friends don't like you"
Just cut already, cut already, cut already"
they're always something along the lines of those, increasing volume with repetition. Typically when I respond I say something in refusal of the suggestions, but am put down by some violent rebuttal.
I'm not quite sure what to make of it all.
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