It sounds to me like she is abusive to you-there are so many verbal and emotional blackmailers out there that continue to abuse their mates and never really seeing what they do-but in what you wrote it shows u had made a real attempt to make up for any wrong doing..spite can be an evil thing and it sounds to me that she is very revengeful to make you stoop down to such mean things. How long are u going to have to pay for it? Forever? She needs to let go and accept your apology and move on from it not continuing to make you pay for the rest of your life.