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Originally Posted by bamapsych
I can relate. I want and desperately search for someone to take care of me. When T does anything that's caring then I tell myself that she does it just because it's her job which I pay her for and that she wouldn't do it otherwise. For the most part, T's really do care or otherwise they wouldn't be in that profession (or be in it very long). I think it's just us that have issues with accepting that caring that perhaps we've never had before. In my case, I was somewhat cared for but it was on a conditional basis. With T, it's unconditional  |
I secretly want to be cared about, too.., but in real time I avoid it because I don't know how to receive it.
The biggest friction in my therapy is that my T does caring things for me (build up pillows for me to put my broken ankle on, put my shoes on for me, hold my hand, stroke my hair, hug me, tell me that she will hold my sword for me, carry my bag for me)...and even tho these things don't look like anything special they are a huge deal to me and trying to understand why she is nice to me has taken up a lot of my time recently. I asked her wed what she hated/disliked about me, and she started to say she dislikes when I get mad at her for being nice to me, but then she stopped and said that doesn't make her mad; it makes her sad that I can't accept someone being nice to me because I don't know what to do with it.