Sometimes it seems like being dead would bring so much peace! But I have a good life!! Ive got a good job although it can b stressful but ive got good hours, good pay and my boss seems to like me. I'm married to the most wonderful man n the world who also has a good job and a nice family! Yet I entertain thoughts of suicide!

I was at work Wednesday and thought if I cant get so and so project done I can kill myself or if I get caught screwing up I can kill myself. Where n the he** does that come from??!!! I haven't even been depressed but I got depressed after those thoughts but the depression didn't last long. I don't feel depressed now! I don't understand why I think like that. Nothing and I repeat nothing is worth killing yourself over! There r so many alternatives to suicide, so many other options. Even if I had intentionally done something horrible I wouldn't have to kill myself.

As a little girl of 8 or 10 yrs old I saw my mom try to overdose and commit suicide. She tried it a couple other times. I know this is where I learned it. But why does it have to keep coming back to my thoughts? I don't understand myself!!

Does anybody else do this? What r ur thoughts?