thanks, elliemay. i did stick to lines along what you suggested but at other times i mentioned how her words made me feel.... so i hope she doesn't take that badly.

the issue isn't so much skype/distance.... it's that trauma therapists, specifically those trained in the techniques that will help me, are few and far between. their rates are quite expensive, even the sliding scale rates. i keep hoping that one day i'll find that special T I can actually connect to and feel safe with. thanks for pointing out possibilities, that helps with the trapped feeling, i appreciate it.