Thank you both for your replies, it really helps alot. He just has this way of making it feel its my fault. Being in a relationship like this makes you doubt yourself. U just dont know anymore what is abuse or Bi-polar? He has the symptons. I am newbie here and reading really helps and espec. those that are on the other side of the fence, they have taken responsibility and trying to change, the difference is he will never admit there is anything wrong with walking out and then returning a week later wanting to see me again. Its such a really bad rollarcoaster. There was one time he walked out because I didnt get him a fork. We were just about to sit down for dinner, and he got so mad and went home. I had made a huge dinner, sirloin was marinating for 4 hours, mashed potatoes etc..just for him to walk OUT..I was so mad. Another time because I didnt want to go walking when I got home from work, I was exhausted. and each time calls me selfish. So right now he is laying in a hospital bed. His family had called me they rushed him he has gotten bad. At first I didnt even believe him bc he has made up so many lies in the past about getting into accidents, etc. This time he was actually telling the truth.