We are early in our marriage and trying to figure a lot of things out. In general he is supportive, and willing to put money into expensive treatment (TMS, out of network doctors, etc.) But I don't think he totally understands. And he will occassionally let one of his worries slip out and I'm like where did that come from? In his defense, I keep a lot from him. For example, I don't share suicidal thoughts with him. I try to put on a happy face even when I am not doing well. I still worry that he will leave me if I "misbehave" by being too sick. (Yeah, I'm in therapy and I get that this isn't healthy!)

Best,
EJ