Thank you. Everything you said makes sense. It also depresses me also. I just want so bad to feel happy. I know it won't come over night. I have been trying really trying. Everyone sayd well you got to try harder. It isn't that easy. I don't know how much more I can try. I feel like I can't do anything right. Like everyone judges me. Even though they say they don't you know it is in the back of there minds. I don't like dealing with this and I don't want to. I feel bad for being me. Like nobody wants me around. That is my life though. I am probaby some screw up that never shouldn't happened. I really wish I could describe the pain I am in better but I can't. I look for that bright side but I can't see it. I hate everything. I feel bad beause I am venting. I don't want to say the wrong thing. I just want to make everyone happy. I can't deal with school, my family, work, and just everything. The one escape I have is my boyfriend. I know that I can't rely on only him and I know he doesn't want me to only rely on him. I don't know what else I have. I am sacred and confused. I am hurting and stressed. My world is spinning and I can't stop it. I feel like I am screaming so loud but no one can here me. My thoughts are all messed up and I don't know if they are right. I just dont know anymore...................I can't do anything right.