I'm still hanging on, however I realized something tonight when I was alone. What I realized was I'm a loser. I can't make friends, can't get a job no matter what I do even with a professional written resume. I'm just a 28 year old loser who collects carts at a grocery store. When i try to talk to someone after a few words, they walk away from me. I don't laugh anymore i just chuckle. When I look into the mirror, i am very sad at what I see. I'm just an ugly loser. There is nothing left for me.