I have made a lot of effort over the years, to little avail. I have had a lot of bad luck and am hampered by poor social skills. There is so much psychologically wrong with me that even after months or years there has been little to no progress from therapy. Being gay is clearly not for me. I am struggling with c-PTSD from repeated abuse on the job and socially. Lately, I just feel totally defeated and, for the most part, have given up on my life. My problems are incurable.