Thanks everyone.

Everything worked out okay today.

Husband won't go to any type of therapy. He doesn't believe in it at all. I've tried. I know we have some big issues that neither of us handle very well, so I think it will help. I keep bringing it up, but he always says no.

We don't get much alone time, either. It sucks. We don't have a date night or anything. Sometimes when I get a bonus at work we'll go have a night out. That's like a once a year thing, though. We spend time together but surrounded by kids and internet and t.v. We used to be closer, it's just since the bad thing happened last year that things are the way they are now. We're slowly getting back there, but I'm horrendously damaged by it and trying to figure out how to heal. It's hard.