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Originally Posted by landskaperdan
triggers. I can get triggered by a chair sitting in the middle of a room. a lonely chair... I start to think that the chair is me, alone in the middle of the room. I start to think I know how it feels. and BAM.....
Or passing houses while I drive.. wondering what life is like for the people that live there. Imagining myself living there. Wondering if they ever look at me as I pass, wondering what my life is like.
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OMG, and I thought I was the only person who thinks of stuff like this!! I do that all the time with passing cars/homes etc., and wonder if the people inside them think of these things like I do, or if they see the beauty and the sadness around them like I do. But then, I've never lived in the mind of a so-called 'normal' person and have no idea whatsoever of what they think or see or sense......KWIM?
I will admit to something I actually love about being bipolar, though, and that is the intensity with which I'm able to enjoy the sensual wonders of the world. There are few things better than seeing the flaming autumn trees against a sapphire sky, while enjoying a lovely Rachmaninoff melody floating out of my iPod and sipping hot coffee on my way to work in the morning. That's where I almost find myself feeling sorry for people who don't see what I see or feel what I feel......and yet on the other hand, I wonder sometimes if it's worth all the craziness when things aren't going right. Guess I'll never know, huh?
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