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Originally Posted by LostMom3
I am schizoaffective. The way my Psych Doc explained it was that it is like schizophrenia with a mood disorder thrown in. I was diagnosed Bipolar first many years ago. I was given this new diagnosis last March. The main symptoms that I have are hallucinations. Audio and visual. More audio than visual though. My voices never shut up. I can drown them out with an MP3 player, but can't go around with earphones in everywhere. The Risperdal he has me on(9mg a day) has helped control the visual hallucinations. My voices tell me to cut my self and I have on occassion. They tell me I am worthless, unloved, fat, ugly, not needed and that my family would be better off with out me. Has anyone else had this problem? If so how do you get past the aggravation of hearing someone all the time?
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Hey there, Lost Mom. I can empathize with you tremendously. I have not been diagnosed as schizoaffective, however, I do suffer from Bipolar I with psychotic features (i.e. visual and audio hallucinations). I am about equal as to which one I deal with on a daily basis. Both drive me nuts. Of course, some days are worse than others. The voices tell me that I am evil, that i am bad, that I am a failure. They tell me to hurt myself because i deserve it. And I believe them. So, what do I do? I cut. I hit concrete walls and heavy wood doors. I make myself hurt in hopes of getting rid of the voices or at least quieting them down. It doesn't work, but I do hope. I just started Risperdal so I don't know if it's working yet. I know I haven't offered you any advise, but I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.